been a while

with good reason.

memory lane

one of those movies stuck in my head i could never remember the name of...till now. awesome.

over seassss

thank you dez, friends make the week float on faster than you can say...

oh darn it all

listening to this band on 7' and LP alone in my room most likely wasn't half as good as live. Oh well, guess i should have dropped out of high school and ignored college and let Albany define my future! bwah bwah-13 years later, things ain't looking different if I had. HHIG always on repeat-thank "God" for Mabel-she truly is my true love.

there-how bout some "hipster shit"

stuck in my head at work tonight while dealing with scumbags at work and daily. Mabel just turned two and i couldn't be happier_2 years as a father and the rest of my life to look forward to with her. can't wait, this week will end friday. cheers

for danny

on repeat-miss you bud.

Ohhh HEYYY!!!

Whats going on? OHHH not much, you know just walking around in LaLa Land and then riding in an anal suppository straight into AssholeFunkTown, no biggie.

Down to the River

This song reminds me of home. Once i have the gas money Im taking my little girl to say goodbye to the place i learned to love and lose-The Roxy. Some things lay to rest but never sleep-ill miss that bar more than most people miss a past relative. Too young and too many fish fry's to remember and all the Coors, Genny and Whiskey to age you one quicker than Doc's "Time Machine." It's been too long.

"...the kind of thoughts i got"

Will Oldham is in my top five people who I want to be able to spend one day with and just watch them do what they do and pick their brain. Great musician/actor/comedian etc. Another favorite song of mine. Nothing to write about so fuck it-music works. Turned the leaf.

seasonal

m.p. hinson

on repeat

yup

im in love

L.CK

"excuse me, can I cut in?"

nope

misunderstood

great song and double LP that Mabel and I have been enjoying for the past couple months. Reminds me of "home." So happy the weather's been great lately, the backyard fire pit is in full use every night. cheers.

god bless Canada

Mabel and I are enjoying these Canadian gents over burgers and fries tonight. enjoy

again

why not-songs been in my head way too much. 2's company and 3's a crowd. Can't wait for the Cape this summer and teaching my little girl about the Ocean. Listen to them shells.

Home

the open road calls and Mabel and I are getting ready for the summer and adventures galore. enjoy

we all got wooden nails

This is the last song that played at Danny's wake before we all walked out and it has been stuck in my head ever since. It's weird to think its been almost 6 months since he's been gone and yet so much has happened since. I use to be able to know picking up the phone and calling that dude would always put shit in perspective and calm down the blood heating through my veins. He'd give you the kind of advice that sometimes wasn't exactly what you wanted to hear but you HAD to hear, and he was right. I should have listened a little better i guess. Miss you duder.

peek a boo

thanks matt

B.F.F

i'd have to say I have the greatest friends in the entire world and i wouldnt change them for the world. MC3 is going to be beyond Thunder Dome and its all bc of the family i have outside and within my bloodline. Thank you. "nod gonna happen brah". BFF.

bleubird

"eye buggers are just the remains of the nasty things you see"

new/old

inspiration comes from every corner, yesterday and tomorrow. Documenting it is the only way to understanding it and accepting it. Change is around us 24/7 even if the same elements of the past still fuel what matters. To me writing and keeping still on what means most and updating it as much as myself can take makes me realize what it is to know the truth and keep on track with what is real and what comes with the attention of daily life. This year will NOT be the last. I know what matters.

a dollar a day

keeps the blues away. saving for my "old lady" daily. going to have a sissy bar especially built for my Amabel M. B. too.

ides of March

new Robert Francis is pretty awesome. Not much new-dudes opened Seasons recently so my free time has been supporting them and spending money i dont have. Oh well, cant wait for next weekend and the premiere party for the shop and other things. Enjoy and Cheers.

Fuck the Ox

one life to live means one life to recognize your mistakes and memorize all that means worth saving in your mind, good and bad. Live with your own shit, grow daily and accept what is true when you have to wake to it each day. Its the only way to live and love.


Miss you Danny-we should be riding bikes right now or comparing books. You get one chance and I know now not to waste any more time. We all live with what we have done-its the decision to grow and change that matters most. Thank you and miss you bud.

to the forth and back and back again

New England's calling, can't wait for the Cape this summer and some sunshine.

whatever you're chewing on

swallow it.

needed sleep.

cheesy and catchy. stuck in my head all week.

nothing better

chores are done and funny faces before bed make monday nights that much better. Then we watched this www.youtube.com/user/lukehudsoncollider and practiced saying "Hi Luke" for when Mabel gets to meet the only man her daddy will ever approve of. xo

"shit happens"

ordering this tonight, welding school starts in May and keeping those pennies saved. the road rolls both ways.

shit

thank you Kaherawaks.

medicine

No need for crazy pills, Baker keeps gravity going. Way better than Miles too I might add.

Vadder Sessions

best shit ive seen in years.

album of the year

2010 feels a ton like 2009 and it's waaaaaaaay to early for this shit. Keep the snow and cold, im headed for sunshine and beaches with my little lady Mabel

"just a little bit tired thats all"

shit recording, shit footage, awesome song.

HOLY SHIT

if you feel like wasting 10 mins of your life on some epic shit, pour yourself a drink and have at it...your gonna need one.

Dick Van Blues

Mabel has been on a huge Mary Poppins and Chitty Chitty Bang Bang kick lately and while every single song in both stream through my brain day and night even when I sleep this Dick Van Dyke clip seems to help keep me grounded. Cheers

like father like son

son of John Fante. his work is a cross between his fathers and Bukowski on certain levels.

Luke Hudson Cassels

Congrats Sean and Carolynn, and welcome to your little audience of one today! Mabel can't wait to meet her future beau

tomorrow

@ Valentines. xo

Paul Auster

Man in the Dark

He is also responsible for this:

Fante

Every winter I read Post Office by Bukowski and Salinger's Catcher and The Rye around Christmas, but today I decided that every Summer I'm going to re-read Ask the Dust by John Fante-partly for some motivation to get writing again and partly for, well just those other reasons. If you haven't read this book you should. It's the work that made Bukowski who he was and how he wrote. Booze and writing tend to go hand in hand I guess for most authors, which usually leaves no room for "true love" - thus a shitty downward spiraling life with great works of literature. Anyways, the movie is typical in the sense that it is no where half as good as the novel-but still worth seeing if you are too lazy to read. Cheers

inspiration

when life starts to kick the shit out of you, put on the foil.

cookies & cake

best Valentine ever.

"come to witness now the sinking of the ship"

thanks maggie.

tuesday, august 27th 2009

i was wrong, im tired of winter. stay warm.

Lamb

I remember my Memah laying on the couch when she would stay with us up at the river constantly reading. In fact even when we were little kids and would go to the Berkshires to visit her and my grandpa in between playing in the pine tree fields or swimming in the pool she would be in her library/den reading. As a child I never thought to question what she was flooding her brain with with her feet perched up on the arm of the couch, but as I got older the desire to know and start building my own library gathered more in my heart and head. She never strayed from her honesty, and even when I was young taboo topics such as tattoos and religion were never something I couldn't inquire about to the beautiful lady comfortable on the couch with her book on her heart. Lamb by Christopher Moore is the one book she recommended that I read when it came out, and being the person I was then I shrugged it off. Then after she passed away and we divided up her things my older brother told me I needed to read it as well. He was right. From page one to page end this book had me smiling, laughing and still thinking the whole time. It is in no way your average "religions nuts and a conspiracy of coo coo shit-Dan Brown-esque" book. Instead it's a story that one might actually picture themselves being a part of in a topic with whatever "God" you bow your head to at night, or scream "NO THANKS" at when the sun is shining brightly. I'm glad my grandmother enjoyed this book because It brings me closer to her in a way I wish I could have related to her more when she was alive. I recommend this book to anyone, it lightens the heart and puts the head in a pool of memories and thoughts...at least for me.

The Legend of...

"this life equals your death, listen to the birds sing"
Jessco White

Jesus Saves

August 11th

yup

your Mona Lisa's lazy smile

I remember in 2000 hearing Relationship of Command and thinking it was going to be one of the best albums in the next 10 years. 10 years later I still hold true to that statement, although i would definitely have to say In/Casino/Out will always make me think back to hanging out with Tim, Teddy and Danny going to Peacock Music for hours on end. Always on repeat.

1,2,3,4

FUCK OVECHKIN's hat-trick, here's your play of the week.

the fuel...

that keeps this engine running. xo

Silver Bullet

Shooter McGavin approved.

stolen

next purchase

get into it_review soon.

these days

so i've decided to start writing again more and less with the random videos of sappy songs and shit i like, only trouble is what to write about other than what current book i'm fumbling my way through at the present moment (Christopher Moore's Lamb). Not much is new in the world of team father/daughter-she is killing it at school and starting to use partial sentences which has my brain warped and my heart keeping file of every joy she brings me without even knowing it. It feels like yesterday we were bringing her home from the doctors and worried if the cats would mess with her or not and now shes chasing them around yelling "bad kitties" pulling their tales and tipping over their water dish. Life flows pretty fast down stream. Anyways working 60 plus hours a week for the restaurant and in the dungeon at the plaza has me pretty occupied so any free time is spent with the little angel. Oh well, couldn't ask for anything more even-and if i did it wouldn't be on here. Cheers.



i lied-another sappy song.

another friday night

"your life is not my life, but we can share a light"

six

new lp is outstanding.

all for you Danny

you might even be able to see my skinny ass try and rehash the "mosh." best pile on/sing along in years_made me feel old and put a smile on my face.

beautiful and damned

listening to a lot of Drag The River this week so i figured this would suffice. Had a great weekend with my daughter, went on as many adventures as possible and she played with her cousins for two days as well. I get her tomorrow after work too-hopefully there is a hockey game on, can't miss our favorite past time-it's what keeps me going daily. stay warm. it's still too cold outside and in.

yskov

Danny was always telling me about different books to check out and read and authors he thought I might like. I remember when he first told me about Dave Eggers and how I needed to read his book You Shall Know Our Velocity. So in my "hey I'm going to Borders to get a coffee and a book on Sunday" fashion I did just that-only to let it sit on the shelf for over 2 years. But, when life handed me the free time to unfortunately dwell on all the "what ifs" and try and dig up fossils of the past when you sit at work pretty much doing nothing I decided it was more than past time to see what Danny saw in this book. It is a hard read, especially with everything that has happened within the past 6 months, but I can honestly say I have never had a book relate so powerfully to me not just on a personal level but on an inspirational level as well. Too many coincidences and memories flow through the text into real life-which for me is what I tend to look for when I'm turning page after page. I don't think this book is for everyone, but if you have the kind of friends that I do and know the understanding of trying to search for more than whats on the surface and sift through the shit to find whats true, false and in between then you should read this book, because it honestly is all about what matters most-giving up your ghosts and loving the shit out life.

-You were right Danny, I needed to read this book

"1.Thoughts are made of water, and water always finds a way.
2.If you can't dodge the water, run.
3. There are bears and there are small dogs. Be strong like bear! If they take out your teeth, sit on the dogs. Bears always forget they can just sit on the dogs. Sit on the dogs!
4. If your house is haunted bring in your friends and start tearing the walls down. How can they haunt a house that you take apart? Aha!"

blast from the past

soooo fucking socially awkward to watch, the laugh tracks make absolutely NO sense.

on repeat

for Sean and Carolyn

move

this song had mabel dancing her little butt off tonight while uncle "Dee-man" Vorce (as she says it) were dying laying.

"never that good with words anyway"

toe tapper

only lady this guy needs-my favorite little "audience of one"

honest

Ted Hughes

worth the watch-one of the greatest poets in the past 100 years.

Swans

been on a Michael Gira kick the past couple days-maybe its the weather. Anyways listen to all/any or related solo projects from this dude including Angel of Light.

453 pages into...

-if you haven't or are looking for an amazing read-start with this. Enjoy the whole book as it is-a whole. You will not be disappointed at all.

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do, and I will."
-Neil Gaiman

is it spring yet?

more sappy shit-can't wait for warmer "weather"

why not right?

buck owens ruled and this song hits it like a hammer to a nail. cheers/have fun.

#2

this dude is the reason the Maple Leafs are my number two team...wish he was still a fucking Ranger-Brashier hasnt done SHIT all season for us Avery's too busy getting into the heads of goal tenders.

The first day of Spring

this is a great album, thanks to my twin for pointing it in my direction-kind of a "hey winter sucks dick and what was is now shit" feel. Oh well, it only gets better-and always will.

brighter days ahead. stay warm.

crunktastic

get into it.

great reunion!

-only wish my good friend Danny was with Tim, Dezzy and I at this one friday after work like he was before they broke up a year ago. It wasn't the same without him but still had a blast knowing he was there in spirit.

"learn to love the mountain and rediscover air, put away your complicated coffee and rediscover care"

Mabel's got a new friend

Congrats to Teddy and Sarah. I couldn't be happier for the two of you...and she did it with no drugs!! Damn! TROOPER STATUS. Can't wait to have Mabel meet her.